I know most college students feel like this but for me it REALLY feels like the library is my new home! I work there, I study there, and on most days i spent more time awake there then in my own apartment! what the heck!? It makes no sense to me. too bad you can't pay rent according to actual hours spent in the room your renting. But its OK. So this weekend has been fun, i went to dinner with my roommates and then to the big party of the year here in the 'burg. It was fun, even if i was afraid my foot was going to get stepped on the whole night. Not cool. Then I saw an old friend and yeah. Why is it that the people you don't want to be in love with you, are.
So once upon a time i had a Missionary. After much heart felt prayer i decided we needed to stop writing. To make a long story short, we were writing as more then friends and that isn't a way i should be talking to a missionary. I told him we needed to be friends and only friends, he is a missionary and that is his first priority. I stand firmly behind that decision but i think he has a hard time taking it. We had a talk about it the other night I hope he got the point. I was very proud of myself for exercising willpower. But No is a no. Once you've received an answer, that it. OK enough of that topic, i don't like discussing it much.
So I've finished the book of Mormon again. I love that book. I'm not sure how many times I've read it now, but it still amazes me what i can get from it. I have never had the same experience twice when I read those beloved pages. This time around i found the chapter where Moroni is saying his last farewell ( the first time) to be very enlightening. I've now begun to read the New Testament. It can be difficult reading but I love the stories of Christ and i look forward to studying them. Along with all this reading I've been doing a lot of thinking. Mission or not. Yeah, I'm still a year away from it, and a lot can happen in a year, but i find myself wanting to serve. I would love to be married if that is whats right for me, a year from now, but i am living my life as though i am preparing to serve. If i do get the chance to serve i will leave next fall. I guess we'll all have to wait and see, is a mission really right for me.
Its a year of possibilities, a year of decisions, and hopefully a year or growth as well.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Rock step, triple, triple, Rock step. Cuddle, Dip and Spin. Triple Swing, its one of my favorite dances. Its fast, its fun, and its a great exercise. To some dancing is an activity, to some it is just good exercise. But to me dancing, is... me. It makes me happy, its what i do went i miss someone. I don't know how to explain it, its just something i do. When i could walk a little easier, i used to dance in the kitchen while making dinner, or when i was lonely. I dance all the time, all i need now is a dance partner. But that will happen in time, as for now I'll just keep dancing, holding auditions.
So school has started again and I'm already in the fill swing of things again. I have a heavy course load but it seems that everything is going alright. My new home is not my new apartment but the good old McKay Library. Seriously, between work and HW and reading i have to do for classes, I am in the library or on campus about 4 hrs a day, and more if I work that day. I was even talking to my roommate tonight and she was asking where i had been, seriously i hadn't seen her in two days. Crazy. We live together!
Next, I guess its time for an Ankle Update. I have one word... Painful. My ankle had been doing great for about two weeks, then this week happened, i don't know what i did, but it hurts. The joint is doing just fine, no pain there, but then there is inflammation in the middle of my foot like deep between my toes. And it hurts to walk, it hurts to stand. Only time is doesn't hurt is while I'm sleeping. Although I have been able to see the multiple blessings in regards to my leg there are still hard times.
So now that I've done the updates, Ive got to give my blessing. So my Uncle knows all my surgeons. He was talking to my doctor the other day when he gave him some interesting insight. The break i had isn't uncommon, but the way my body dealt with it was. Generally the break I had is accompanied with at least two other breaks including the femur, and in most cases the back. I have said this before and I'll say it again the calmness i felt the day of my accident was amazing. Yeah i was in for a big trial, but I was calm about the activity, I was even calm about jumping. I know it seems weird to say, but i was blessed that day, i have seen the blessings from it, everyday. All i need to do now is take my trial, and apply it to my life, making everyday better then the last.