Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Why Do We Get Nervous?

OK, so why is it that humans get nervous? Is it because we are anticipating a catastrophic event to take place, or is it because we can't predict the outcome, or worst of all, is it because we know the outcome and don't like it? I am not sure which one sparks this odd emotion but i do know one thing, I do not like it. I find myself sitting and thinking about the "what ifs" all too much. I am a planner, someone who likes to have plans and see them executed. I'm the one who is obsessively on time and enjoys having her day's events planned out. It is true, i can function just fine with out a plan but sometimes its just nice knowing what's up next. For me, it seems to remove, some of the nervousness. There are few things i am shy with, a small handful of men make me shy/nervous, and singing by myself publicly. I don't know what it is about those two things they do me in so badly, but i can't seem to fight it. At this very moment i find myself facing one of these challenges. No i am not about to go sing publicly, yet, but i find there is a person who i don't understand and its making me utterly nervous. There is an event Saturday and i thought it would be fun to invite this friend to come along. I haven't seen this person for nearly 6 weeks now. Yeah sure we've talked, but not as much as I'd like, and their hesitation to accept the invitation was disheartening. I don't know whether it was um, i don't want to go with you, or an i don't want to go to this event. I'm feeling a little better now after writing my thoughts out, but still i am nervous as to what the outcome of the evening will be. I think i well end up as "just friends" with this individual but who knows. As this very moment i am perfectly OK with that. I mean come on, he doesn't even know.
Well now that I've written all this I'll wrap it up now by saying on thing "No one can make you feel inferior with out your consent"- Eleanore Roosevelt. She's right, Only i can let this bug me, he doesn't know, why would he care?
Till next time, we'll see where life takes me next...
Angela

2 comments:

Eric & Laura said...

Hey there...I was snooping around and came across your blog. You've crossed over to the dark side. I never thought I'd give in either, but it's turned out to be a great way to journal, scrap, whatever you want to call it. I enjoyed reading your posts - stick with it.
Laura :)

Blake and Alli said...

hey lover...i didn't know you had a blog =D