On Top Of it!

Oh man, So its been a wonderful today. I finished my last midterm last night and now I can say I'm half way done. The semesters seem to go fast, and its really hard to believe I'm a junior in college and already trying to plan out Grad School. Oh Dang. So I feel like I'm on top of the world right now. Even though I'm sitting at work doing virtually nothing, its been a wonderful day. It all started at 7 am, when i actually got out of bed on time and was determined to make today great. I got ready did hw, and was totally on top of it. I even got everything, well just about, done that i had planned.
I don't know how to explain it exactly but yeah. Its been a good day and I've been in a great mood! On Monday my Ward had a Halloween party. lol It was so much fun! Two of my friends, Michelle, Jessica, and I, all dressed up like Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. It was Hilarious! Somehow we squeezed our 20 year old selves into 6 year old boy's consumes. It really was a lot of fun and if i do say so, it was quite a hit. Oh how fun Halloween can be.
Next Item to Discuss is my class project for Religion 264 project. To say the least I'm a little excited! What i am doing is a "Mass Scripture Marking". OK so here it is, what i am doing is taking 6-8 hrs and marking my scriptures. The current quad that I have i got when i was about 8. Its quite well marked, with things from over the years, so i went and bought a military sized Book of Mormon( about the size of a very small book) and I am going to go through the two and transfer the scriptures I marked from one to the other. I am hoping that this will help me be able to take the scriptures with me everywhere. It will be my Travel size! Its been a lot of fun so far. I am marking different subjects in different colors and adding little captions to help me find scriptures faster. Its fun to see what I've marked over the years. One of the things I've loved throughout my study of this prophetic book is that you can read a verse a hundred times and it can have a different meaning to you each time. It always says the same thing, and teaches the doctrine but how your interpret it is always specific to your need and interpretation of the spirit at that time. So If you wanna send me your Fav Book of Mormon Scripture I'd appreciate it. Thanks!
PS- I'm wearing the Halloween socks my mom sent me in a package.
(Socks make me happy:)

Putting my Red High Heels on!

Well Its October and i'm 20! I can't believe i'm in my twenties. Its a little weird to admit. But none the less it feels good and I'm moving onward. Life has been moving so fast but still not much has changed. I put high Heels on for the first time in 3 months this month and its been great. I've chosen to walk talk with my red heels on.
This weekend had been quite traumatic though, one of my Best friends Morgan's roommate died on Friday in a car accident. Then yesterday MY roommate Carrie Broke her neck in a 4-wheeling accident. Carrie is doing well and has no Paralysis, but still it was shocking to find out. In the last 24-hrs i've been the hospital twice and its been interesting, She is a truly loved girl, and even though this is going to have a trail, she is extremely blessed, she easily could have been killed. So please keep her in your prayers.
Here are a few updates on me, So i turn 20 on Oct, 4th. It was a very relaxed day, it being conference weekend and all, but it was great none the less. Morgan and I got pedicures between sessions and then got all dolled up and went out to dinner. Over all is was a great Birthday. Last weekend my Mom was able to come up from California which was awesome. Sadly it ended up being the only weekend so far this semester in which it snowed. Funny how that works. So she froze but it was so great having her here.
I stopped going to Physical therapy about a week or so ago, and i can still feel things being tight but I'm trying to stay active and make it work none the less. I've been blessed to say the least. Work has been going well, I kind of was given a Promotion. I am now going to start training to do the billing and paperwork. So that's cool, and oh yeah, I got the R.A. Job for my complex for next semester. I'm trying to figure out if i should do EFY next summer or not. I think I'll apply and see what happens. It was a great Job, and i love the youth so we'll see. Dating, well my Ex Came up this weekend but i was So busy i only saw him for a few hrs. He has really grown up but there are somethings he does that makes him still seem like a teenager to me (by the way he is about 2 yrs older then I) and other then that I'm just playing hard to get for one boy, and nothing other then that. So pretty much I'm still more single then ever but I'm dealing OK with it.
I want to just stop and thank my heavenly father for a loving family I've been blessed with, Also for prayer. Especially in times of trial we tend to turn to our father in heaven but i am so grateful to have the knowledge that he is there and he understands. My savior Jesus Christ knows all i have been though and will yet experience, even though i do not know the trials to come i know that because was able to endure it, with his help so can I.
Someday I will find a husband who loves me, who doesn't make fun of me so it hurts, and who knows how to make me laugh, and most of all who makes me want to be better. Until that day i will continue working on becoming the person i want to be. Until then, God be with you till I write again.
A.Kerr

3 Topics, One Blog

I know most college students feel like this but for me it REALLY feels like the library is my new home! I work there, I study there, and on most days i spent more time awake there then in my own apartment! what the heck!? It makes no sense to me. too bad you can't pay rent according to actual hours spent in the room your renting. But its OK. So this weekend has been fun, i went to dinner with my roommates and then to the big party of the year here in the 'burg. It was fun, even if i was afraid my foot was going to get stepped on the whole night. Not cool. Then I saw an old friend and yeah. Why is it that the people you don't want to be in love with you, are.
So once upon a time i had a Missionary. After much heart felt prayer i decided we needed to stop writing. To make a long story short, we were writing as more then friends and that isn't a way i should be talking to a missionary. I told him we needed to be friends and only friends, he is a missionary and that is his first priority. I stand firmly behind that decision but i think he has a hard time taking it. We had a talk about it the other night I hope he got the point. I was very proud of myself for exercising willpower. But No is a no. Once you've received an answer, that it. OK enough of that topic, i don't like discussing it much.
So I've finished the book of Mormon again. I love that book. I'm not sure how many times I've read it now, but it still amazes me what i can get from it. I have never had the same experience twice when I read those beloved pages. This time around i found the chapter where Moroni is saying his last farewell ( the first time) to be very enlightening. I've now begun to read the New Testament. It can be difficult reading but I love the stories of Christ and i look forward to studying them. Along with all this reading I've been doing a lot of thinking. Mission or not. Yeah, I'm still a year away from it, and a lot can happen in a year, but i find myself wanting to serve. I would love to be married if that is whats right for me, a year from now, but i am living my life as though i am preparing to serve. If i do get the chance to serve i will leave next fall. I guess we'll all have to wait and see, is a mission really right for me.
Its a year of possibilities, a year of decisions, and hopefully a year or growth as well.

Did you know I love to dance?

Rock step, triple, triple, Rock step. Cuddle, Dip and Spin. Triple Swing, its one of my favorite dances. Its fast, its fun, and its a great exercise. To some dancing is an activity, to some it is just good exercise. But to me dancing, is... me. It makes me happy, its what i do went i miss someone. I don't know how to explain it, its just something i do. When i could walk a little easier, i used to dance in the kitchen while making dinner, or when i was lonely. I dance all the time, all i need now is a dance partner. But that will happen in time, as for now I'll just keep dancing, holding auditions.

So school has started again and I'm already in the fill swing of things again. I have a heavy course load but it seems that everything is going alright. My new home is not my new apartment but the good old McKay Library. Seriously, between work and HW and reading i have to do for classes, I am in the library or on campus about 4 hrs a day, and more if I work that day. I was even talking to my roommate tonight and she was asking where i had been, seriously i hadn't seen her in two days. Crazy. We live together!

Next, I guess its time for an Ankle Update. I have one word... Painful. My ankle had been doing great for about two weeks, then this week happened, i don't know what i did, but it hurts. The joint is doing just fine, no pain there, but then there is inflammation in the middle of my foot like deep between my toes. And it hurts to walk, it hurts to stand. Only time is doesn't hurt is while I'm sleeping. Although I have been able to see the multiple blessings in regards to my leg there are still hard times.

So now that I've done the updates, Ive got to give my blessing. So my Uncle knows all my surgeons. He was talking to my doctor the other day when he gave him some interesting insight. The break i had isn't uncommon, but the way my body dealt with it was. Generally the break I had is accompanied with at least two other breaks including the femur, and in most cases the back. I have said this before and I'll say it again the calmness i felt the day of my accident was amazing. Yeah i was in for a big trial, but I was calm about the activity, I was even calm about jumping. I know it seems weird to say, but i was blessed that day, i have seen the blessings from it, everyday. All i need to do now is take my trial, and apply it to my life, making everyday better then the last.

-A.Kerr

A summer of lessons and now a year of possiblities.

August Rush. No, I'm not talking about the movie. I mean August, the month that feels like a Rush. I just got home a few days ago from one of the best experiences of my life and I feel that I am being thrown into this August Rush as i press forward and get ready for school again. Alright, Alright, I'm excited for school, you've got me there, but it seems like it so close. If there is any month of the summer that goes by fastest it would be this month. You've got to get school supplies, make plans, set schedules, say good-byes, and who knows what else.
In about a week I'll be at Disneyland for the big EFY counselor Trip, then with in a few days I'll be off to Idaho for school again. I've been trying to finalize all my travel plans and how exactly i am going to afford everything but i guess this is just one more thing I'm going to have to be patient about. Go figure.
As a quick update, the last two weeks of my life have been amazing! I had my challenging moments but I found that it has strengthened me and solidified my love and testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ even more. I have had 14 14 year old boys fall in love with me, i had 20 girls become my friend and i learned so much. Did you know that in the Bible Dictionary there is such a thing as the "Harmony's of the Gospel"? I didn't. Apparently its every story of Christ, and there is SO much to learn! I learned from the youth, and found strength in them. I miss all my youth so much but i know if we all continue to live righteously then we will not falter but live onward and see each other again.
Now back to life. I seemed to miss out on what was happening in the world this summer, and i can't say i missed it. I found life beyond the media and news and it was a place of peace I'd rather not forget. I learned so much this summer and I've grown more then ever thought possible.
This next year will truly be a year of possibilities. I could possibly find someone to marry, possibly be applying to graduates school, and possibly turning in my papers to serve a mission, but none the less, i will continue to live according to the lords will.
Someone said to me this summer when you ask for direction don't ask God where you should be going, tell him what you have planned and ask if it be right that it may be accomplished and if not that if may be impossible.
Luke 1:37- "For with god Nothing (Righteous) is impossible"
Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ which Strengthen Me"
I will now take the lessons I've learned and press forward through my August Rush, and be steadfast and immovable in my year of possibilities! I can truly do all things through Christ which Strengthen me!

Why Do We Get Nervous?

OK, so why is it that humans get nervous? Is it because we are anticipating a catastrophic event to take place, or is it because we can't predict the outcome, or worst of all, is it because we know the outcome and don't like it? I am not sure which one sparks this odd emotion but i do know one thing, I do not like it. I find myself sitting and thinking about the "what ifs" all too much. I am a planner, someone who likes to have plans and see them executed. I'm the one who is obsessively on time and enjoys having her day's events planned out. It is true, i can function just fine with out a plan but sometimes its just nice knowing what's up next. For me, it seems to remove, some of the nervousness. There are few things i am shy with, a small handful of men make me shy/nervous, and singing by myself publicly. I don't know what it is about those two things they do me in so badly, but i can't seem to fight it. At this very moment i find myself facing one of these challenges. No i am not about to go sing publicly, yet, but i find there is a person who i don't understand and its making me utterly nervous. There is an event Saturday and i thought it would be fun to invite this friend to come along. I haven't seen this person for nearly 6 weeks now. Yeah sure we've talked, but not as much as I'd like, and their hesitation to accept the invitation was disheartening. I don't know whether it was um, i don't want to go with you, or an i don't want to go to this event. I'm feeling a little better now after writing my thoughts out, but still i am nervous as to what the outcome of the evening will be. I think i well end up as "just friends" with this individual but who knows. As this very moment i am perfectly OK with that. I mean come on, he doesn't even know.
Well now that I've written all this I'll wrap it up now by saying on thing "No one can make you feel inferior with out your consent"- Eleanore Roosevelt. She's right, Only i can let this bug me, he doesn't know, why would he care?
Till next time, we'll see where life takes me next...

Angela

"I love You"

Three very Powerful words. I always understood their power but now more then ever. Its not because I've told someone, but because someone told me. I've been reflecting a lot on the matter lately, even prior to the event. I said " i love 'ya" all the time. But suddenly i find myself wanted to use the word more sparingly. I can say i love my family, and many of my close friends. But to a "man" I've never said those three big words. I have had opportunity to say it to someone, but never have. A flirt, would be a good way to describe me most days. Very friendly, yes, but Someone said something to me a few weeks ago. "Make sure you let the guy you like feel special, and not just another guy your flirting with". That phrase really stuck with me. Am i making my someone special feel special? I don't even have a certain special someone right now, but I'm just thinking.

I need to be careful, make the words and the actions mean so much more. Kisses are special, I've always felt that way, words are special, and not my intentional flirting should be also. I can still be friendly, but i need to be careful to not let friendly turn into flirty too much. When I said "I love you" I want him to know I mean it! Hopefully I'll only have to say it to one man. Life is interesting when you stand back for 5 min and watch from a distance. Someone said there are three types of people in our lives, Leaves, branches, and roots. Leaves will come and go with the seasons in our lives, Branches are good friends who we trust until we put ourselves on them and they leave us high and dry, unable to give support. And final we have few roots, who are those people who will come into our lives and who will always be there to keep us standing, lifting us up and who keep us growing.
Roots are few are far between, but someone day i will have a new root, i just need to be patient for that time, Let it grow. "I love you" Three words with more meaning then even thought possible.